Weight loss

Hey everyone,

I think there's a little thing about myself that needs to be told, so the wrong perception about me isn't made.

I'm a bit overweight. Not excessively. Like not fifty-sixty kilo's over weight. Only about ten-fifteen kilos but still. I use to be ninety-three kilos. I lost about eight, making me around eighty-five. This is where I am now. I'm stuck. I use to cry about it all the time.

I went to the doctor about it and I may have this condition that makes it really hard to lose weight and have children. I say may because I haven't actually had the proper test to find out yet. It's going to be cheaper next year, so the doctor said if I can hold on until then, it will be cheaper. So I said that I'll wait.

I've decided though to continue being healthy and try to lose some kind of weight, even just another two or three kilos. I can't sit around feeling sorry for myself just because I may not actually lose the amount of weight I desire and if it only makes me fitter, I'll be happy. And even though it's hard, don't mean I shouldn't try.

So that's what I've decided to do. I'm going to use my wii for exercise and eat properly, drink more water, etc. It's easier now it's coming into summer because it's suppose to be really hot, so then I wont feel like constantly eating like I do in winter.

I'm feeling really motivated because I found a blog that these three boys have made of their journey's, They're doing like a competition type thing. Whoever can lose the most percentage of weight, wins. It goes for three months too, so I'll have continuous motivation! Every day I'll come here and I'll want to exercise and eat properly because I kinda feel like I'm not doing it on my own!

If I can lose a couple of kilos, I might fit into my clothes proper and I'll feel better about myself - which can only be a good thing.

I have to go now.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

Speaking your mind

Hey gorgeous boys 'n' girls,

How are you all? I am great.

Today I said to a friend;

'UNLESS YOU CAN READ MINDS, WHO ELSE'S MIND CAN YOU SPEAK?'

I was referring to her saying something along the lines of not being able speak her mind.

I thought that statement was pretty witty myself. It's true though, isn't it? I mean, you can only speak what's on YOUR mind! Not everyone can be a super sexy mind reading vampire like Edward Cullen.

BUT ANYWAY, Twilight's a subject for another day LOL.

Yeah, so, sorry I got distracted.

Like I said, anyways. I'll admit, sometimes I've held back from saying stuff but I believe it's equally important to hold back on saying stuff if it's going to hurt someone, than speaking up and not letting your thoughts be forgotten.

So yes. Be yourself, speak up or don't if you believe it will hurt someone (UNLESS; you think they need to hear it... But being unnecessarily hurtful is not cool!) and trust yourself. Like having trust in other people, it's important to trust yourself and trust that you will make the right choices and trust that even if you make the wrong ones that you'll work it out in the end.

Talk again soon.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl.

Independence

Hey everyone,

I'm writing because something exciting has happened, I'm just writing cause :P

How are you all? I'm good. Haven't been doing a lot. We're at Mum's work at the minute, she's serving customers and I'm up the back on the computer *smiles*.

Did some of my novel again. Edited a bit. Figured out that in the end it should be roughly one hundred and twenty pages long. Which is like three times longer than anything I have ever written before! I am loving it big time! I understand that it probably wont get published but I am so happy for it to be my first big novel. I'm very proud of myself. Which is a rare feeling!

With all the stuff that's happened (good and bad!) throughout my life, even though the bad times pushed my boundaries and made me wish it was different, I'm now thankful I went through those things because it has made me the person I am today. While I might not be the most educated or most out going person because of it, I am more open minded. Well, I like to think I am, anyway. I like to think that if I can get through something that emotionally pushed me, I can get through anything.

I know that next year when I move out, I am going to be freaking out but I'll get through it. I'll find a way to be come independent of Mum and find a way to make my own person. I'm looking forward to it.

I'm trying to relish the next eleven-twelve months. Spend time with everyone and the dogs. Time relaxing, saving up and when I get my car - learn to drive.

I can't wait until I get my car. I dunno when it will be, by the middle of next month I hope!

I have to head off now, got some things to do.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl.

Apologies + Stuff

Hi everyone,

I am very sorry I've been absent over the weekend. I guess I've changed my mind about the whole blogging thing. I mean, I don't wanna stop all together, I do love it. But maybe instead of blogging every day like originally planned, blog every two or three days instead. That way I don't jabber on about nothing and bore you to tears.

I have absolutely nothing to say. That is how uneventful my life has been over the past few days. I watched a few movies, did a little clean up in my room with the radio on, went on the computer and stuff.

Then again, I don't hear anybody saying that just because they have a blog, they have a bigger and better life too. I mean, one of the reasons ones self makes a blog, is because they're bored.

I also wanted to make a blog because I thought over the next two years (move out next year and then life after woods...) would be exciting. Obviously the excitement hasn't started as of yet!

So I'm gonna go. I bet in I'm in the danger zone for boring you to tears.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl.

Home and Away Fans - Portal

Home and Away Fans - Portal

If any of you are Home and Away fans, go here. It's a fantastic group where you can talk about Home and Away until your hearts desired.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

Offloading and worrying

Hey everyone,

I'm sorry I didn't blog yesterday, I was feeling a bit off. Not sick off, just emotionally off. Not that I mind, because everyone needs someone to offload on at times and I love that person to be me but then I feel like my problems are insignificant because compared to there's they are and I don't want to offload onto them because they're not important problems, just stupid things everyone has to deal with.

I'm sorry I'm being so confusing. I guess what I'm trying to say is compared to problems I've had before, the ones I have now - are nothing.

I don't even know what I'm saying. Ha ha. Please don't take any notice of this weird rant.

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I remember when I was little and the only thing I had to worry about was 'what do I get at the canteen today?' or 'do I wear my hair up or down?'

Now there's an endless list of things to worry about. And after a while, everyone worries about them - well I hope I'm not the only one. Tell me, am I the only one that worries?

I think my problem is, I worry about too many things at once;
'Will my friends cope with HSC?'
'Will I manage to get a job?'
'How will I cope with going to work five days a week after not working or going to school for over two years?'

Mum calls me a worry wort. Ha ha.

My other problem is I have too much time to worry. I know once I get out there and do stuff, I wont have time to worry.

I look forward to that.

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I can't WAIT to get a car and start driving everyday. I think once I get the hang of it, I am going to love it. I know there's a hundred things to think about but good driving is in the genes, I just hope the genes kept flowing and were passed on to me.

I have to go. Getting hungry, ha ha.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

P.S. Sorry about my rant!

Global Warming

Hey Everyone,

How are you all today? I'm good.

I was thinking this morning about a radio program I was listening to one day, I think it was the John Law's one but the dude who took it over. He sounds like John and has the same kinda personality, so I get confused but anyways. They were talking about Global Warming and how, I don't remember the exact percentage but us humans don't actually impact on the changes happening in Global Warming that much. I think we only impact like ten-fifteen percent. The rest is just natural.

Don't actually take me for gossip on this because I don't really know how true it is but if this is really true and we don't impact on Global Warming that much, then why are we worrying? I know the effort we're putting in isn't a bad thing, honestly, if we didn't put in the effort that percentage would be a hundred times worse but why do we argue so much about it?

Just something to think about.

I'm going to go for today. Go make some lunch but I'll be back tomorrow, Feel free to comment and note your thoughts on my subject for today.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

Time and Complaining...

Hey all,

Have you thought about how fast time actually travels? How every minute that passes seems to feel faster and faster? Like how the last six months have travelled? Fast! I'm not saying time should go slow, that would be the opposite extreme, but I'm wishing time would just take a deep breath and slow down just a little. I feel like I'm going to wake up and it'll be Christmas tomorrow. I mean, it's already the fifteenth of August. It is only just under four months away. So many things happened last Christmas, I wonder how I'm going to feel this Christmas.

But anyways, I'm wondering from my topic.

(I started this yesterday, so today is the sixteenth of August. I started, saved, went away to do something and completely forgot what I'd started here. Bad WriterGirl!! Anyways, I will continue now...)

Time. It runs like the wind. Many people will tell you that. It's like the clock fast forwards itself when your not looking. But if we didn't have time, it would be like something else.

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I once said, like many other people, 'I wish money grew on trees' but then my brother said something that made total sense, 'if it weren't money, it would be something else'.

It's like we've always got something to complain about. Nothing is ever good enough. I believe the only person who can truly complain is those who have ill health, no family, no friends, no home and no money. Then you have the right to complain that your life isn't good enough.

Yet people, INCLUDING MYSELF, complain endlessly.

Complaining is just human nature. We can't help it. It's an instinct to moan about our problems. It's healthy - well most of the time, anyway. But sometimes I think we complain too much. Most of us have a family, whither it's a blood family or a friends family. Most of us have good health and at least somewhere to sleep at night. And even if we have no money, we've got love.

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There was one point in life where I had no friends and my family; they would be there if I needed them but we were going through a tough time like most families do at some point. But we did have money.

Now I have a big group of incredible friends and I couldn't ask for a tighter more happier family. But money, it's tight.

If someone asked me which scenario I would choose; the second one would win hands down.

Even though having money issues is stressful at times and complaining about it is inevitable but I'd rather have a happy family that communicate properly and can have a fun time, than money.

It really doesn't buy happiness.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl.

Bad Habbits

Hey all,

Bad habits, we all have one - yeah? I know I have a few. One of them I'm trying to overcome now, especially since I have to save money to move out. You see, my bad habit is; I save money and then I spend it. I can't help it. I seem to forget what it's for. But now I'm determined to keep it there and actually SAVE! No more putting money in just for it to come back out a few days later. I have to teach myself that if I take it out again, putting it in there in the first place is useless!

I have a few others too like nail biting, forgetting to exercise every day etc etc... I must try and stop biting my nails at least twice a year but it's hopeless. I hate long nails, and when I say long nails I mean any nail with any length on them. I suppose I should neaten them up a bit. Stop biting them, keep them the length I want and make them look presentable. Rather than just all bitten and unattractive, like they are now ha ha. And as far as exercise goes, I really need to start again. If not for weight loss, for fitness! I'm already losing weight by eating properly, which I already do. I've been feeling smaller lately, so fingers crossed if I start being a good girl and exercising, I might go down a size!

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I haven't been lazy today! Me and Mum have been out for hours doing the food shopping, paying rent etc. We had lunch out. I had one quarter BBQ chicken, chips and gravy. Not extremely healthy, I know but I do treat myself. It was a bit salty though. Don't think we'll go again. And we're about to go out again to go to the video store and get some DVDs. I'll just get some weeklies.

I also wanna ask him when the next season of One Tree Hill will be out on DVD. I so wanna see what happens. I've heard some nibbles of info about the next season but there's nothing better than sitting down with some snacks to watch a new season yourself. It's like Christmas day and your presents. You wait and wait to open them and when you do, most of the time, it's everything you could have dreamed it would be.

I also like the OC, but it's over. I loved the last season. So much drama. I loved it so much, I brought it! I have the first season of OTH too.

I have to go for now. I'll come back tomorrow.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

Slacking Off

Hello everybody,

Guess what I've been doing today? NOTHING! Yes, nothing. Sure I went down the street for about twenty minutes because Mum wanted to visit a friend but other than I've just been on the computer. At least I got dressed, ha ha.

This also means I haven't got too much to tell you today. Which is horrible.

I think I've found someone to be my flatmate. She lives in Sydney and she's still in high school doing her HSC but we've got a mutual agreement that the end of August next year would be an appropreate time to move in together. Gives me time to get through my L plates and get my P plates and it gives her time to work out what she wants to do. I really hope it works out because she's a good friend, trust worthy and honest, so I know she'd be a good flat mate. And we're not best friends either so there's no chance we'll ruin our friendship. And she'd be good because we both like our space, so I know she wont bug me if I wanna be alone and vis versa.

I haven't got anything else to say. Like I said, I've been doing nothing today.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

Future

Hey everyone,

Okay, so in the first post I made I told you big and scary things were coming for me - yes? Well that is true. Next year, I'm moving out.

I know where I wanna go, what I wanna do and how I wanna do it but I have to be flexible because over the next twelve months I'm learning to drive and I need a fully licenced driver in the car with me whenever I drive. So that means I won't be able to move out until the end of August next year, or whenever I can pass my P's.

I'm also going to have to be flexible because I need money to survive and that means getting a job. I'm going to get a job before I move. I want to get one as some kind of receptionist, book-keeper or something to that degree so it will fill the requirements of the next course I'll wanna do. And I'll need about five to seven thousand to organise everything and have some in the bank for emergency's.

Another reason I'll have to be flexible is because I wanna look for a flat mate. I've asked a heap of people and one of my friends said she wants to go to Newcastle Uni, so I asked her to keep me posted. So another issue I'm going to have is the fact that I can't move until the end of the year and what if my friends wanna start uni at the start of the year? I predict this friend may have a break if I ask her nicely enough but it's still going to make things difficult.

But other than all the flexibility I'm going to have to have, I'm really excited about it. I've got a box where I'm going to put stuff on my list (so far it's about seventy items long, that includes every day things).

I know I didn't write much today but I have to go.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

I'm happy now!

Hey everyone,

I have some great news, Mum is home! And she seems a lot healthier too. Still a bit weak but defiantly a lot stronger than she was a couple of days ago.

Some annoying news; I have a wisdom tooth coming in on the bottom and while it's not as bad as it could be *touch wood* it defiantly hurts. More than my upper jaw. I've got them on both sides at the top and I didn't even feel them come in. When this one finally comes through, I've only got to wait for one more and I'm all finished for growing teeth! YAY. I hate it. I know that teeth are an essential part of your body but as far as I'm concerned they're also the most annoying. Seriously, you spend the first say 12 years of your life growing and dropping teeth and then you spend the next five-six years waiting for your wisdom teeth and looking after them is hard! You've got to brush your teeth properly and floss properly every day.

Anyways, enough of me whining.

I didn't end up watching Australian Idol last night. I ended up watching Dancing with the Stars instead because AUS Idol only had auditions on and they're kind of annoying.

Speaking of music, I've been spending a lot of time lately listening to Chester See. Check him out! I insist. He has a really great voice. Like it's not really fine tuned to perfection but it's really smooth and great to listen to. He writes a lot of his own music and they tend to be love songs but they're not mushy if you know what I mean.

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Had my first taste of staying home alone last night. To start with I had the most incredibly uncomfortable feeling about being alone at night but eventually as the night went on and I cocooned myself in the lounge room with the dogs, heater, laptop, a couple of good movies and a bottle of water and I was fine. I even went to bed and slept for about seven hours, which I didn't think was going to happen at the start of the night.

I think next year I'm going to find someone to move in with. I don't know who yet but I will find someone. If I can't, I'll just have to get use to it - which I will if I have to but I have to admit, sharing would make life so much easier.

I have to head off now. Got some flatmate searching to do, ha ha. Wish me luck.

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl.

Hospital

Hey everyone,

Last night Mum had to go up to the hospital cause it hurt for her to breath, anyways, she got settled in and they gave her medicine. I rang up this morning to see if she was feeling better and she was. My step-dad rang and said he'll be home this afternoon, he was suppose to be away until next Saturday and so as you can imagine I started worrying that something was wrong and no one was telling me. A bit paranoid, I know but she's my mum and I like to know what's going on. So I rang the hospital again and a nurse answered, one of mums good friends. She assured me everything was okay and if they weren't she'd be the first one to come and get me.

I think I worried because my step-dad said he'll come home if Mum got worse and when he said he'll be home this afternoon, I got scared. I just hope she can come home this afternoon so I can be sure she's okay.

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On a much lighter topic, Australian Idol starts tonight. I don't normally watch it but the ads for it have looked alright this year, so I think I'm gonna watch the first couple of episodes to check it out. I'll just have to tape Dancing with the Stars. One of my favourite actors off Home and Away, Lincoln, who plays Geoff is on there this year.

I'll be back tomorrow.

Bye.

Be good, have fun and keep safe!

Love WriterGirl

My Late Childhood/Early teens

Hey Hey - I'm back again.

How are you all? I'm great! You wanna know why? Because I'm going to revisit apart of my late childhood this morning. I'm going to watch The Saddle Club. Ha ha, I know it seems a bit weird, an eighteen year old watching a show for children but I haven't watched it for ages and I feel like watching it.

Back when I was about ten to twelve I spent most of my time Saddle Club obsessed. I read one Saddle Club book a week or more and managed to read about three hundred of them in about two years! I got up early to watch it on t.v. before I went to school, I had posters on my wall and I played Saddle Club games on the Internet. I even had Saddle Club TOYS! You getting the idea yet? I was Saddle Club crazy! I was the biggest Saddle Club fan ever!

If I haven't yet convinced you of how Saddle Club nutty I was, this will; I could tell you about every single character, I could say yes or no to a book if I have read it or not out of the three hundred Bonnie Bryant had written, just by looking at the name.

I lived in Katherine at the time (that's in the Northern Territory, about a three hour drive down from Darwin). I'd moved up there from Raymond Terrace in New South Wales because of my step-dad's work. It was way too hot and isolated but I dealt with it.

I had a really cool friend called Chloe. We butted heads quiet a bit because we were both so stubborn but we were best friends. She wasn't as Saddle Club crazy as I was though.
She was a year younger than me and had grown up in the NT so she was use to all the heat. Unfortunately, we lost touch when I moved to Port Hedland in Western Australia.

OK, so I wont be watching it because the stupid television I'm trying to work wont go to any channels. Which makes me sad but oh well, I can check it out next week. Or maybe I'll try again. Shall I? Okay, lets see if I can make this stubborn t.v. work. Nope, I surfed a hundred channels and they all went blue. I'll just have to see if I can find any on YouTube.

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Made a card thing and sent to one of my favourite television shows called Home and Away. I've heard you get really great replies from hand written letters to signed fan cards. It's really good lately. A main character called Belle Taylor (whose played by Jess Tovey) is dying, which is really sad. And there's an investigation going on because a police officer called Angelo believes someone is Avelonie fishing and apparently that's illegal if your fishing for more than I think they said it's two per person, but someone is bringing it in by the bucket loads. We found out last night who it was. A couple of new characters have come in called Indigo and Dexter, they're brother and sister. They're cool.

I'm gonna head off now,

Be good, have fun and be safe.

Love WriterGirl.

Psychological Disorders Vs Personality Glitches. And about my day.

Hi all,

Schizophrenia, Paranoia, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), Anxiety - just to name a few. They're all psychological disorders with symptoms of serious hallucinations (schizophrenia) to being obsessive with having to check something or do something over and over to make sure it's alright (OCD).
Most of us have at least one symptom out of these serious disorders but it's unlikely that you actually have it, especially schizophrenia with only having 1.1% of cases in adults found in one year. That's a very low percentage rate.

I know I can be very obsessive at times, especially at night checking my bedsheets for bugs because one night there was a big spider in my bed, now I like sleeping with animals on my bed but definatly NOT spiders! Or if there's something in my foot or something stuck in my teeth, I won't leave it alone until it's out. I get anxious and stressed if it wont come out.
Yet I know my symptoms/traits arn't nearly serious enough for me to have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, I just simply have a personality glitch.

I'm not saying all people arn't affected by a psychological disorder; I know a couple of people with schizophrenia, my mum has had a moderate case of anxiety and I have heard of plenty of people with OCD but the majority of people walking around on this planet, like myself, is just affected by a personality glitch.

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I haven't done a lot today. I went food shopping with Mum and reeled over how much a few bits and peices that use to cost maybe sixty-seventy dollars at the most, now cost over one hundred dollars. Got a footlong subway for us to share (yummy! I got chicken fillet). And I got a call from one of my teachers getting me to send in via email one part of my last assignment after she helped me re-do somethings (I learnt something and she was really nice, a rarity!).

I better go now,

Be good, have fun and keep safe.

Love WriterGirl

Me, Myself and I

Hello everybody,

This is WriterGirl. I am eighteen years old and on the brink of some really big things in my life. It's scary but oh so exciting.

You probably guessed from my name that I really enjoy writing, you guessed right. I have been writing short stories for over a year now and I couldn't love anything more (well apart from friends and family, of course). It's extremely freeing and it makes me feel like I'm good at something.
In January I wrote a small passage down on the computer because I was bored as I waited to leave to go see Twilight The Movie, little did I know, it soon became a big project for me. It has been about six months and I have finished over thirty thousand words. I only have about six more chapters left to write. I have no idea if it's going to become some big published novel but I also don't care if I never become a published writer, sure it's my dream but I also don't want to put any pressure on it because I believe that's when the fun is taken out of it.

My friends and family, boy, what can I say? They are the most amazing people. My family have been so so great to me. Sure, we've been through some tough times but like the saying goes 'what don't kill you will only make you stronger' and we have become stronger. I couldn't ask for a better family.
And my friends I couldn't ask for better friends either because I already have incredible friends. They're all going to go so far in their lives. I know at some point some of us may part but I hope they know that everyone of them hold a special place in my heart.

I have to go for now but I will be back soon,

Love WriterGirl.